Okay, I didn’t really want to talk about it. But here. Everybody is talking about race. The double standard of the ongoing media conversation pisses me off and I just can’t keep my mouth shut anymore.
So me. So far, I’ve been called names, looked down upon, humiliated (and on several occasions physically abused) for:
1) being Jewish (which I am not btw)
2) not being Jewish
3) being white (vs. Asian – talk about being kicked in the stomach and crawling in the dirt on your four while all uhm Asians laugh like children looking at it – that’s not a metaphor but a “true story”. Except I never thought about it from the racial point of view, that would be foolish)
4) being white (vs. black – that’s when I was “fresh off the boat” and didn’t know better than to go for a walk in the projects)
5) being a first generation American immigrant (vs. – oh my God – third generation “Real American”)
6) being Russian & female (a sure sign of being a mail order bride – NOT TRUSTWORTHY)
Also, my great grandparents were slaves. And I’ve been in jail in America on false allegations. My dad, mind you, almost broke my back when I was a kid. Thank God I did not see much of him. No, I didn’t grow up in slums. But I am quite a bouquet. And, for the reference, I’ve dated people of all “major” races, and my best friends are an ethnical bunch, too. So I am somewhat entitled to feeling self-righteous, eh?
Now gimme a break. At this point of time, it’s not about the color anyway, it’s about the social status and the money. I’ve been to R Kelly’s parties – everybody kisses his ass very nicely, blacks, whites, and whoevvvr.
One thing that has always interested me (and forgive me, I am a foreigner with a linguistic background and a mad curiosity, so I am absolutely sincerely interested in this). Why is it that if you are black you can use the “n-word”, and if you are white, you can’t, regardless of all other circumstances? It has been bugging me for years now. I would understand if nobody could use it, but no! Black people say it proudly and nobody else is allowed, a twisted taboo, and it’s killing me. I had a (white Jewish musician) boyfriend once who used to call me that word meaning that I was alright, so does it make him racist?
Done. Said what I wanted to say. The good thing about it, reincarnation makes it all kind of a moot point.
UPD. Something just came to mind. I once challenged a (rather evil and obnoxious, trust me) individual who was torturing and bullying a friend of mine. Somehow he had powers over her, that were not powers of love, but powers of war, rather – and she was borderline unrecoverable. When I gave him some of his warfare back, the first phrase out of his mouth was: “Oh, yeah?! Is it the fact that I am black and gay that you have a problem with?!!” I was speechless. The only problem that I had with him was that he was intergalactically obnoxious and felt 100% entitled to it. He could have been purple and dating transgender horses for all I cared.
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